...and that's all of it...

"beginning//

The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and challenged your every view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. the ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself.

The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that god exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. the ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.

The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.

The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank him for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your crap when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love him, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing him. the ones that remind you love lost is better than never having loved at all.

//end"

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Colbie Caillat - I won't

Be romantic, don't forget to have fun

And Ever Has It Been That Love Knows Not Its Own Depth Until The Hour Of Separation. – Kahlil Gibran

"Love simply is, there is no need for you to prove your love to anyone, let alone people."

Converse, communicate, connect, share … there is nothing I would like to put more emphasis on that this. If communicating isn’t in a person's domain, if a person isnt a very verbal, expressive person, if a lover used to listen and understand your silence till now, this is the time to update your skills; and learn how to relay your emotions appropriately because the hardest thing to do is to communicate on a phone without body language or facial expression and not know whats going on in the other person's soul by simply looking into their eyes. Being a part of each others life should become ONE of your high priorities, just because you have other friends and family doesn't mean that you should always be too comfortable and just think its okay you can always talk to your loved one later. And it should not mean that your partner should be the only thing on your mind, you have to learn to find a balance. Because this will determine how much connected you feel with each other, this will determine how much satisfied you feel with your relationship, your conversations and life in general. This is what is going to keep you sane in times of separation.

Whatever you do, it’s important to create a routine. If we chatted in morning, then every morning without fail, that will be the case. If it’s evening, then evening. Having some routine, a kind of consistency helped. It gave a sense of security, it showed that we can still rely on each other. Having a consistent time also helps in planning for the rest of the day. But at the same time, no matter what routine you create, remember to Be Flexible Always. There are times when because of work deadlines, or other life events we cannot give even one hour to each other. It’s difficult to promise when would we chat or for how much time or whether we would chat at all. At those times, we decide to live life as if there were no plans to chat. If, we both are free and get the opportunity to chat, we treat it as bonus. This will free both of us to do whatever we want with our time and helps in not building any resentments or unnecessary time bindings.

But still, no matter what, when it comes down to it, staying apart from your life partner is always difficult. Nothing can replace complete presence of a loved one in our life. Even if you apply everything mentioned above or anywhere else, you will still miss your partner very much, you will still remember your partner everytime you go out, everytime you see something great. Everytime you see something which brings out a ‘wow’ from you, you will terribly miss your partner and wish there were here to share this. And missing is good. Missing your partner simply means you want him/her to be with you. Staying away from loved one will always be very very difficult.

But the point is, missing someone is difficult, your relationship doesn’t have to be difficult. Inspite of all the distance that comes in between both of you, you can still be an important part of each others life, you can still love each other like crazy, you can still share all your small titbits with your partner, you can still have a happy, loving, fulfilling, successful relationship. You can still have a fantastic relationship – just the way you want.

And I realised that having a happy, loving “long distance” relationship and having a happy, loving “close proximity” relationship isn’t really that different. Whether you're next to each other or whether you're miles away... Both require their own set of adjustments; but in all, nothing changes. The needs are still the same – to love and be loved, to connect, to cherish, be friends and be there for each other.

So, let’s get started … actually lets CONTINUE these adventures

hand in hand, side by side, like we used to

Post Scriptum:

"I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions"

Just because someone expresses themselves in extreme ways, doesn't mean they intend to do so; and just because they seem like they always do it, doesn't mean that that person is really trying with all their might to fight it.

The Brighter Side

Late Night Sessions with people have becoming a good and enlightening habit for me again, and I'm eternally grateful to have friends and family who I can run to whenever I just need somebody to talk to (:

btw, I can't wait til summmmaaaaaaaaa!


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"Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me...realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along."

and I thank God that he definitely did <3

Good Souls attract Good Souls

Lucky I'm in _____ with my Bestfriend (:

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"Imagination is more important than Knowledge"
-Albert Einstein

there's always

SUNSHINE after the rain...


4 more days <3

xoxo

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"




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“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

love is not boastful

(:

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2 x 5 will always equal a perfect 10 <3

To the most High

"Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast"

- Psalms 139: 7-10

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'nuff said.

Yezzzir

imissyou.


"Girls do not dress for boys. They dress for themselves, and of course, each other. If girls dressed for boys, they’d just walk around naked at all times." -Betsey Johnson

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Winter Quarter 2010

WHAT UP!

I have a feeling this year's going to be a good one <3
This past Winter break was AMAZING <3
I found tea to be quite more enjoyable than I expected <3
I was extremely productive on my first day of school <3
I found someone to sell my books to and got books for free <3

"all men dream but not equally. those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men. for they may act their dream with open eyes to make it possible."


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I have Psychotic Friends...dun dun dun!
rollyagsalog: i'll snipe your ear off from china

housewife

Fulblownchukstr shut up housewife! i have laundry you can do




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rollyagsalog can i be brutally honest with you tho lorena
rollyagsalog ok fuck it here it goes
ripthestars12 go ahead
rollyagsalog guys have insane game when they're trying to get what they want...they'll spit anything at you to get what they want...and it all seems legit most of the time...but guys can get nasty about shit with girls
rollyagsalog and idk i dont want you getting all sapped up on his talk

Spotless

bpnitheleo well, did you expect to grow up with a spotless life?

bpnitheleo come on now

bpnitheleo don't be naive

bpnitheleo haha

on the reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal tho.

Cursed

It's time for finals again, which means I have to get into finals mode again, which means I'm probably going to get sick again, which means I'm probably going to crash when I go home for winter break...again -___-

[x]FRI:class.nap.study
[x]SAT:study.hang.study
[]SUN:study.mass.study
[]MON:study.appt.final
[]TUES:study.final.pack
[]WED:study:final.home

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asdfjkl;

Under the Weather

"I'm gonna make it by any means,
I got a pocket full of dreams..."

Post Scriptum:
We are not who we used to be, we are merely modern images of our past selves pretending that everything will be the same...
but it won't.

The Giving Tree

I wish we lived in a world where there really are free opportunities to do whatever we want, where there isn't a "catch" at the end of every contract or promotion and one where people get what they deserve. People who constantly work hard don't get the money or recognition that they deserve, while other people who don't give a damn about anyone but themselves are earning more money than these struggling people will ever see in a lifetime. It's such a shame to see how our nation's morals and opportunities have steadily declined over the past couple of decades, and it's really hard to say if we'll ever get back to where we used to be.

When we were younger, all of the older people always said:

"Don't ever let money get in the way of your dreams..."

well...guess what? Money is the main reason why I'm probably not going to be able to achieve anything. How the heck do they expect us to go to school and pay attention when we're too busy trying to figure out if we're even going to stay in school because we don't know if we can afford it.

It's such a horrible thing to make money the main obstacle for a person, and it makes no sense that the UC Regents would increase the tuition. The UC Regents, out of all the people who work with the UCs, should know how difficult it is for a college student or prospective college student to afford college. They should understand how much they had to struggle to get to their positions, they should understand that WE'RE the ones paying for them to still be UC Regents...what would happen if there aren't anymore students who are willing to pay for them?
We might as well go to private schools, I mean eventually we're going to be paying as much as they do, right?

I really don't know what I'm going to do about school next year, I mean I'm already struggling to pay for school right now and I'm not about to ask my parents for more money that they can't give me. I hate that this economy really, really...sucks.


Post Scriptum:
Happy Birthday Grandma Nena! We Love and Miss you!
--If there was one thing that she would want us to take away from all of the advice she ever gave us, it was how to PRAY. I guess there's really only one thing we can do about this, other than protest and cry about it, we'll just have to wait for God to guide us in these stressful situations, because in the end, he's the only one who matters, he's the only one who can decide, he's the ONLY ONE who can really say why all of these things happen. HE does things not to test us, but to humble us in our surroundings. Salamat sa Liwanag Mo.

Reconnecting

Basically, I want to spend everyday laughing with those exceptional ones where we have to taste melancholy or get ourselves through times when its appropriate to be in that state of being. I want to thank my family and everyone else who's helped me along the way. I want to help others and see them succeed with the advice I give them.I want to live in San Francisco one day and chill all day by the bay, on the real. I want to be able to say I made a name for myself and made my family happy even though I've already put them through so much. I want to constantly be able to tell my friends how proud I am to be called one of their friends without feeling awkward saying it because its always an honor to be in their presence. I want to find love and not have it be that fake type of love but that I don't need to live with you but I can't live without you type of love. I want to dream and fulfill my dreams to the best of my abilities until I can no longer dream at all. Lastly, I want to be up there with God and one day be able to say that I lived the life we both wanted me to live. Word up.
p.s. RIP Grandma Nena


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'93 til infinity

attraction?

bpnitheleo (10:31:16 PM): after 10 years, military and a kid, casual just doesn't cut it

WHATS GOING ON!?!?

bpnitheleo ...long?

bpnitheleo like, tall, but on the side?

ripthestars12 thats what she said

bpnitheleo mmm gurl

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random quickie beach trips :)

Everything's Magic

“Your heart just breaks, that’s all. But you can’t judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you.”

-Audrey Hepburn

Post Scriptum: This is my 50th post?

Everything's Magic

“Your heart just breaks, that’s all. But you can’t judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you.”

-Audrey Hepburn

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This is my 50th post?

Emerald and Teal

I feel like I'm on top of things and falling behind at the same time.
I seriously need to get it together, It's FOURTH WEEK already!(?)
gahhhhhh.

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I'm not kidding, take me to see Demi Lovato